AM Inspiration

Its that time of year again. The time of year when we all scramble. Scramble to fix everything we did wrong the whole year in one week. After all, Chazal tell us that its possible. Today i can do teshuva for all the Wednesdays of the year. Its a daunting and overwhelming task. How is it even possible to do that? If I am perfect today...will it make all the past Wednesdays perfect? Is it a superimposed image? does it replace them? How does it work? That i cannot profess to know. But one thing I do know...it would be foolish of me to ignore the opportunity. The Rambam says that we are to consider ourselves as if we are " bein onim " middle of the rd..neither tzaddikim or reshaim, and must use this week to do teshuva so that we will be worthy of being written in the book of life. It is not enough to just do more mitzvot to push us over onto the "good" side. It is only the "act" of teshuva that will bring us a favorable judgment. I was thinking about wha...

Things don't always come out the way you want. You envision an entire outfit and you get all excited..til you try it and you realize that its a no go. Try again. An artist is working on a painting..for weeks and months..and then all of a sudden it hits him-this is not working. He rips it up, wipes the canvas clean. Its been a whole year. A year of success and failures Highs and lows. Lots of plateaus. Its hard, to come to judgment day. In my siddur i had a list of things that i wanted to correct, i could maybe cross off two things off that that list. It was written in 2004. That's a long time ago very little change. Yes, Gd cares about quality not quantity. But there has to be a reason that so little change has happened in such a long time. When a building is crooked, no matter how much u try to explain it away..its not going to correct itself. You need to tear the building down, go back to the foundation. Refocus, Regroup and Rebuild. My first semester of PA sch...