Doomed forever?
I don't know exactly how many people are aware of this, but once an email strand hits 100 on Gmail, it starts over again from one. meaning that emails 1-100 are archived and they no longer appear in the email strand. You only have the present email that you are working with visible and it goes on from there.
I was discussing with a friend (with whom i have this email insanity with..) that all those emails have been lost in cyberspace, down in GMail history never to be seen again. But she remarked that this was not the case. the emails are still there..it just takes a little more work to get to them..
this was going to be a pre-Rosh Hashana post originally but then i thought it may work better after..
Hopefully, we all had an inspirational Day of Judgment. A day of connection. A day of intense prayer. A day of commitment to be better. For me the first day of RH was was easily a better day in terms of prayer and shul and actual kavannah in my tefilla. By the time Mincha of Shabbat came around..lets just say that i was a little tired out. I've had better and I've had worse..
It is all too easy to be inspired. All it takes is a sunrise, and incredible Shabbat Shuva drasha. Usually the inspiration comes from an outside source. The question is..do we internalize it? Do we grab what is on the outside and pull it in? that is the classic line everyone uses when it comes to inspiration "if its not internalized it is lost..and you are back to where you started..."
However, I have another idea to propose and y'all can tell me what you think. Yes, when one is inspired the best thing to do is put it into action right away in order to internalize it. Yes, this is PLAN A. But what happens when you are too busy to internalize (sad but true.) What happens to that bit of light that inspired you..has it been lost in the space time continuum forever?
Maybe, perhaps, efshar..it is like the email strand...Maybe the inspiration is archived somewhere in the deep recesses of our soul. It IS THERE, but maybe we have to do a little digging to get to it. Maybe it takes a little bit more work and a little more inspiration to get to it, but that does not mean its not there anymore. It is just hiding..
Rosh Hashana is filled with inspirational moments and i was sitting there in shul, wishing i could take notes, wishing i could remember every word that was said, every inspirational thought i had. But that is not the case and now the inspiration is sitting there in my soul..waiting to be tapped into.
So i humbly suggest, taking a few minutes to sit down and go over RH in your head. It was such a whirlwind of a few days..so sit and think. Think about the drasha, think about what was going through your head during Musaf..and get it down and hopefully, that inspiration is not doomed to death in time and space.
I was discussing with a friend (with whom i have this email insanity with..) that all those emails have been lost in cyberspace, down in GMail history never to be seen again. But she remarked that this was not the case. the emails are still there..it just takes a little more work to get to them..
this was going to be a pre-Rosh Hashana post originally but then i thought it may work better after..
Hopefully, we all had an inspirational Day of Judgment. A day of connection. A day of intense prayer. A day of commitment to be better. For me the first day of RH was was easily a better day in terms of prayer and shul and actual kavannah in my tefilla. By the time Mincha of Shabbat came around..lets just say that i was a little tired out. I've had better and I've had worse..
It is all too easy to be inspired. All it takes is a sunrise, and incredible Shabbat Shuva drasha. Usually the inspiration comes from an outside source. The question is..do we internalize it? Do we grab what is on the outside and pull it in? that is the classic line everyone uses when it comes to inspiration "if its not internalized it is lost..and you are back to where you started..."
However, I have another idea to propose and y'all can tell me what you think. Yes, when one is inspired the best thing to do is put it into action right away in order to internalize it. Yes, this is PLAN A. But what happens when you are too busy to internalize (sad but true.) What happens to that bit of light that inspired you..has it been lost in the space time continuum forever?
Maybe, perhaps, efshar..it is like the email strand...Maybe the inspiration is archived somewhere in the deep recesses of our soul. It IS THERE, but maybe we have to do a little digging to get to it. Maybe it takes a little bit more work and a little more inspiration to get to it, but that does not mean its not there anymore. It is just hiding..
Rosh Hashana is filled with inspirational moments and i was sitting there in shul, wishing i could take notes, wishing i could remember every word that was said, every inspirational thought i had. But that is not the case and now the inspiration is sitting there in my soul..waiting to be tapped into.
So i humbly suggest, taking a few minutes to sit down and go over RH in your head. It was such a whirlwind of a few days..so sit and think. Think about the drasha, think about what was going through your head during Musaf..and get it down and hopefully, that inspiration is not doomed to death in time and space.
Really great post!! So beautiful. It is so hard to always hold on to that inspiration- I like your idea that the inspiration doesn't just go away, that it still stays there somewhere, even if it's harder to tap into. I like how you take regular life situations and use them as mashalim.
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ReplyDeletei really try to see Hashem's lessons in everyday life. I firmly believe that if you look and listen hard enough, Hshem is always talking to us.
My friend made a comment about this post today which i think is really a good point, that once you find the inspiration hidden deep down, you have to take the time to fan the flame..it wont be what it was originally, you have to give it room to grow again-it needs to be sparked
That is such a good point - I like that idea! I totally agree that sometimes the inspiration can be hidden deep inside you and you have to work to try to get it out again. Sometimes an outside factor can even cause you to be re-inspired and remember the thing that caused you to be inspired in the first place and then you can jump really high!
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