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Ever feel...

Like your completely superfluous... Like you  everything say is wrong Every step wrong Everything just WRONG

A Cleaner Tomorrow

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I feel compelled to follow up the last uber depressing post with a more positive one. Princess Lea  just wrote about the importance of delayed gratification. Self Control. Words that seem so foreign to too many people these days. One of the reasons anorexics go to such extreme measures of dieting, is that they feel like they have lost all control of their lives and food, well that is one thing that is under their control. That sense of control, that degree of discipline is empowering. Being a dictator just yourself, is still power. I have harnessed this power. No, I am not anorexic. My friend is getting married in March, and I am dieting and exercising. I have been complaining for too long that my coat doesnt fit without doing anything about it. Its invigorating. I am in control. Not my sweet tooth, not the late night munchies..I made a decision to eat healthy and well and I am sticking to it. I am slowly, cleaning my apartment, really deep cleaning and its cathartic. I think t

tonight

so basically it comes down to this, i dont have anyone to talk to..and i really need to get this out. A family I am close to has a son you could call " at risk." I hate labels but just so you know what Im talking about. The parents..have no clue what they are doing and are making text-book classic WRONG moves. They seem to be intent on completely pushing the kid off. Issuing ultimatums. Telling him they wouldn't care if he died. Kicking him out of the house. Yelling. Screaming. The works. The sisters reached out to me and i told them how important it is to love him, and be warm to him. To let him know that he is wanted and that they are there for him unconditionally. I mentioned in passing something you learn in Psyche 101- you can never force anyone to change..people will change when they want to. You can change yourself but that is about it. Anywhose..the crazed dad called me yelling at me that i am in no position to tell his kids anything...especially such sill