AM Inspiration

As always, on Thursday night the question gnaws at me..what are you posting about? the voices ask.. as i was falling into the land of nod i had a few idea yet of course now that i sit to put pen to paper..i have no blessed clue.. regardless, yesterday my extended family all took on a personal fast. A beloved member of the family is very ill, so in the zechut of his refuah shelaimah we fasted. It is an amazing thing. On a regular day,when i get hungry i must get food in me asap. I cannot concentrate. I cannot work. I get nauseous. In short, bad things happen so i make sure to get food. But on a fast day. it is different. Yes, i got hungry. But when food is not an option..you push past the hunger and do you do what you have to do anyway. Soon you get lost in your work and the hunger pains die away. Mi'kamcha Yisrael. When it comes to my diet i am not so disciplined. The things that i want to eat but i shouldn't do not become non-options rather they become worse options yet at

Here is today's short thought... So as i was driving by i saw this man waiting at the bus stop. He was an obese man who could no longer walk in his own and was in a wheelchair waiting for the bus whilst reading his kindle. My first thought was nebach..the poor soul..The public transport in this city is pathetic..everyone drives..the bus comes every 45 mins...and this poor man was waiting till the bus came. this is what occurred to me..here i was tut tutting this man who had eaten his way to immobility locking himself to a wheelchair...what the malachim must think of us as they look down at us..nebach..look at her/him..how did he manage to get himself to this point...he put himself in this position and now he cannot get out... How important it is to make every decision that will bring us to the person that we want to be..so we dont end up digging ourselves into a hole that we cannot get out of... anyways..that was my thought of the day...

On Sunday morning i was in the car and i was listening to the radio..and they annouced that they were sad to announce that Royal Marshall had passed away that weekend and then went on to list the details of the memorial service. Who is Royal and why do i care? Royal was a member of the crew of a political talk show that i listened to here and there. Royal was 43 when he suffered from a massive heart attack and was dead before he hit the ground. It does make you stop and think. When we got to bed in the evening we assume that we will wake up. We don't go to bed making tearful goodbye to all our loved ones lest we don't arise in the morning. We know our neshama goes up to regenerate and recharge at night..but we assume that it will return to us in the morning and life will go on. We make plans for the future. When we wake up and go to work..we think about what we are going to do when i get home...we go to the gym..we sleep in late..we don't sleep at all..we basically live

I'm sure everyone is sick of winter posts. The blogsophere has been inundated with.."what i learned from the snow" posts.. I could not bear to be left behind so here is my contribution to the cause..now that it has finally snowed and given us a week off from school and work! It snowed Sunday night! Woohoo! It was a winter wonderland! Here when we do not get much snow any flake is cause for celebration. When it comes done fast and sticks..its a fiesta! On the first night of the snow..we all just sat and watched..the brave and young at heart frolicked in the white downpour..We are not practiced in the study of snow. We hear about it. We saw horror pictures from  the NY blizzard and we thanked our lucky stars for living in such a warm place were such a thing never happened. But then it happened. The snow fell and it STUCK! School was closed and the roads iced over. We all snuggled at home with mugs of hot cocoa and steaming tea marveling at the beauty of it all. But at

 It has been cold, shocker right? It is winter..so one would think that it would be cold, but where i live..we don't always experience weather according to the proper seasons..hot when its supposed to be cold, withering heat when its supposed to be lovely..anyways.. the other night it was freeezing in my room, i figured once i was all snug and tucked in i would warm up quickly.. i usually do..but somehow i woke up in the wee hours of the morning to find myself still curled up in a ball trying to keep warm, i tried extending my toes only to have them snap back into ball formation..i checked the time..2:48 (roughly) and decided it was worth it to quickly jump out of bed where it was significantly colder to grab a pair of warm fuzzy socks..and jump back in..which i did...only to realize that it was still cold. uber cold. So i did something i never do, something that i always make fun of those skinny people who are always cold (you know who you are), i braved the cold once more in