AM Inspiration

 welcome to depressive-y season, the weather is dark, its cold and im just tired. I am sad and i dont like it.  I originally thought that maybe this has to do with my family drama and the way my brother has been hurting me and my family. the disrespect that he and his wife has been showing. and then add to that the stress of trying to work around my family's schedule, plan a florida trip and a february trip. but i think that what kind of pushed me over the edge was dealing with my friends break up, it has been bringing up all my feelings from my break up that i probably never truly got over. He has been going through the feels that come when you break up with someone that you truly love. and its just been reminding me of all the pain and hurt that i had/ probably continue to have that just lays there underneath everything.  the mourning of everything that you lost, the love that you will never feel again, the freedom and excitement you feel when your with the person that is your pe