4 Letter Word
Elul is such a scary time. Every year it creeps up on me. I have no idea how its Elul already. I have no idea where the time went. During Elul, I start being hyper critical of myself. How could I not be learning? How could I miss davening? its ELUL! but it happens. We are still human during this month. We do not magically transform into super-people on Rosh Chodesh as much as we would like to. I'm in college again. I'm sitting in a room full of people I would not necessarily pick to be my friends hour after hour, day after day. The influences are not the greatest. But I cannot help it. I cannot force them to use cleaner language. I cannot force them not to make dirty jokes. I cannot change any of those things. When I was in college at home, it didn't seem to be such a problem. Maybe I didn't spend as much time with the people in my classes. Maybe people in the south are just more polite. I don't know. All I know is that I have all these 4 letter words r...