AM Inspiration

Things don't always come out the way you want. You envision an entire outfit and you get all excited..til you try it and you realize that its a no go. Try again. An artist is working on a painting..for weeks and months..and then all of a sudden it hits him-this is not working. He rips it up, wipes the canvas clean. Its been a whole year. A year of success and failures Highs and lows. Lots of plateaus. Its hard, to come to judgment day. In my siddur i had a list of things that i wanted to correct, i could maybe cross off two things off that that list. It was written in 2004. That's a long time ago very little change. Yes, Gd cares about quality not quantity. But there has to be a reason that so little change has happened in such a long time. When a building is crooked, no matter how much u try to explain it away..its not going to correct itself. You need to tear the building down, go back to the foundation. Refocus, Regroup and Rebuild. My first semester of PA sch...

I never thought I would be lonely. There have been rare occasions in my life until now that I have experienced such a sense of loneliness. There is no one to talk to when I get home at night. I can't call my parents and complain about how hard it is because they'll just take it harder than me and feel worse that I am so far away from home. There is no one to give me a hug when I'm down. There is no one to make me dinner when I'm just too tired to cook. There are no left overs in the fridge to just grab. There is no one around to bounce ideas off. There is no one to ask if my outfit looks good. These shoes or these? No one to offer solicited or unsolicited advice. There is no one to practice blood pressure on. No one's eyes I can look into with my ophthalmoscope. I never felt the need for Facebook till now. I considered it for a second, should I sign back in? That tells you how desperate I've been for some sense of social in...

I don't think I would've done it any better. This is the time of year where give an exact accounting for all our moments, all our actions, all our words. This  is a great list of questions compiled by Shocked! to help us lead the way.