Acceptance
I got in! After years of working and after months of praying..it actually happened…I GOT IN! I still find it hard to believe and it still makes my pulse quicken when I think about it. I keep thinking…thank you Hashem! I take no credit for this accomplishment. This is all Him. I was wondering what it was that made me think this way. I mean I have worked hard for this. I have spent many sleepless nights studying, practicing and reviewing. Countless of cups of coffee and hundreds of pretzels later..I finally achieved my goal. So why don’t I feel a sense of accomplishment? Well people say congrats I say thank you, but I don't feel like it has anything to do with me. It is a "matnas chinam." The truth is that we do not deserve anything we get. What have we done to deserve life? A home? Beauty? Intelligence? When Moshe was davening to get into Eretz Yisrael he used the lashon of "v'etchanan." He davened so many times until Hashem told him to stop davening ...