AM Inspiration

so its almost lag ba'omer which is exciting for those who keep first half as for the rest of you who keep second half..im sorry but the end is almost near anyway shavuot is around the corner..and  now that i have had slightly more sleep than last week this time (Slightly being the operative word) i decided that i reall shud make this one a good one ... we  all have moments in life when we have to make a decision that we dont want to make but we know that we have to..and we know that the final outcome is going to be something that we dont like and even highly loathe but at the end of the day we know that its the right thing to do..im in the middle of catching up with a close friend -its 3 am i have to wake up at 7 to go to work/school/ take a test..so u know that u must go to sleep now! and that in order for you to be even semi-functioning tomorrow u need to get some rem cycles in asap..but somehow you cant tear yourself away from the phone cuz u feel that this is important to.

So it seems that im pulling more all nighters than ever before..and so seeing that i didnt sleep last night..i hope this is somewhat coherent. the only thing that is keeping me up right now is serious caffeine and some sersious betas blast ing in my ear! yesterday i was coming home from work and man i had such a good idea for a post..and then of course i forgot it last night but then i had an awesome reminder which i will share shortly.. as i was coming home from work i was thinking how its pathetic how pathetic my davening is..and i was thinking how its not like i dont connect to G-d and its not that I dont think He's control or that He is involved in my life. in fact to the contrary..i like to find Him everywhere (even on marta..lol)  so i was trying to figuire out why it wasnt working i remembered an article i read on aish..and i wish i had time to link it..about this lady who got stuck in a real bad situation and she didnt have her phone on her so she couldnt call anyone to c

So people, hows life treating ya? Is it a beautiful day in the neighberhood? wow im tired! but that is nothing new! ive decided that taking marta has become one of the best parts of my day..its such a learning opportunity. in many sense. one is that it gives my actual time to sit and learn a sefer/to study..also in watching what goes on. people are really fascinating and it cracks me how differnt taking marta is to taking the NY metro..lol..people just start talking and becomes BFFs whlist sitting on marta. i cant count the number of times people were talking as i came in and i assumed they were there together but then one will get up..and then they'll be like..oh it was nice meeting youi..have a great day! its amazing i love the south! this guy gave a homeless guy a handshake yesterday..and i was thikning how tat wud never ever ever wud happen in the big apple..anyways yesterday this blind guy comes onto marta and this other dude that was sitting there popped ouitta his seat and g

So as u can see ive been messing with this page, playing with different things and i was looking at my old posts and i was actually looking at the stuff that i had written this time last year..nad its kinda funny. cuz it seems t hat i was always studying then and so too now..it seems to be all i do..and i was reading the post about bircas hachama and i was mind boggled at how fast time flies by..and i cant belive that it was really that long ago it feels like i was just sitting here typing ';ys and also i feel like the nature of the posts have been less humorous and more pointed..not gettin so many stories as much..or maybe im just getting old and forgettin em by the time i get to typing. anyways followin that theme..no story today (cept for the fact that i set three thousand alarms to wake me up plus got a transatlantic wake up call to make sure that i was up..got like 2 hrs last night) but i wanted to discuss the importance of teh concept of not judging people and not making as

so i've been challenged again, this time to blog a short two days after i blogged last and as usual i cannot turn down a challenge so here i am and this morning i was thinking about what i was gonna write about? and then i realized that the challenge itself is a good topic to write about.. i was recently talking (yea i know it seems like im always talking..probably cuz i am) to a friend about drive, and whether i had it or not, what it is that drives us and what it is that indicates that we have drive. i was saying that i had no drive any more cuz i dont really care about my grades as much as i used to etc..but then she pointed out that i stay up all night studying indicating that i did have drive..whatver..i like to arguue and u continued to argue for arguments sake but this morning as i was thinking about what to do it occured to me that the fact that i took the challenge ment that i did..now  im not here to talk abt myself..rather using myself as an example to see what is it t

so this has been an interesting week, it felt like friday on monday, super oily hair on wedneday..one day of chol hamoed adn bam its actually friday this time around..if ur week has been anythink like mine uve been renning around, exhausted four cups later and then before u know its time to eat again..time really flies and its really hard to keep track of it unless we are conscious of it. it seems that pesach is one of those times that peopel stop ad reflect on the year..its a monumental time and always has memories attached so its not a suprise that we stop and think..where was i last year? what was i doing this time a year ago? who was i with? my oh my have things changed..well that last line was my observation and i cannot speak for everyone but i think that its probably a pretty universal statemnt.. i was discussing this with someoen actually on erev tom tov about how when i came back from seminary teh word on the street was that i had gotten "brainwashed" now personall