AM Inspiration

**warning-this is a little bit all over the place  Its pretty cliche. The concept of light and dark. Light is Good Dark is Bad. A small amount of light can dispel the darkness. Cliche. Simple. On the first day of creation G-d created light. He separated the light and darkness and thus there was day and night. Some people are morning people others night owls. We all have our own time when we excel. Some of us achieve our greatest accomplishments in the moments of greatest pressure. The darkness pushes us to be better, to keep moving, to get through to the other side. Others, cannot be rushed, cannot be pressured. They need to be scheduled and organized, they need the sun and goodness to keep going. Darkness only holds them back. Me, I have always prided myself on being both a night and morning person (just not an afternoon person.) I can stay up all night or wake up before the sun and accomplish what it is that i need to do. I thrive under pressure. Day and nig

Shabbat Shabbaton The holiest day of the year. May we be zoche to use the day properly and reach the highest heights. One suggestion: tannit dibbur-on this day we separate ourselves from all things physical. We strive to achieve "angel" status. Add this one thing to your list. Distance yourself from this last thing. Take on this extra thing. It will elevate the day. I started doing it a few years ago..its incredible. I ask forgiveness if i offended anyone or insulted anyone. Chatima Tova

I am a social person, as I've said many times I am sure. I thrive when I am surrounded my people. I thrive when I have close friends and people to spend time with. I  enjoy alone time as much as the next person. I like to workout and read. But when I am alone for too long, I get lonely. When I'm lonely, I do things that i regret. Things that take me away from spirituality. At this point, I see it one way. G-d is testing me. This is has happened to me before. A friend I was close to decided that the relationship was too much for her to handle. It was difficult to say the least. Chasdei Hashem, I moved on, made another close friend. We got close. But all good things come to an end. Its not really an end. Its a change. A hard change. Heart wrenching change. This is the hardest Yom Kippur ever. Because forgiveness does not come as easily as one would like. I intellectually want to forgive. I know that i am being unreasonable and that she is fully in her right. But at the

People who are married are less suicidal than single, divorced, widowed people

I have not written anything "inspirational" in a while, and since the title of this blog is Am INSPIRATION, i thought it was high time i did. Especially with Yom Kippur around the corner. I got this this morning and thought it was well written and a unique thought that i had not yet heard. Hope it inspires.  Weekly Parasha Insights by Rabbi Eli Mansour * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *  Shabbat Shuba: The Easiest Misva Many of us find Teshuba to be a difficult, grueling process. We often feel too intimidated to even begin thinking about Teshuba and changing who we are.  And yet, ironically enough, the Torah indicates that Teshuba is actually the easiest Misva. Last Shabbat, in Parashat Nisavim, we read, “For this Misva…is not too difficult for you, nor is it distant from you… It is very near to you, in your mouth and in your heart…” (Debarim 30:11-14). The Ramban (Rabbi Moshe Nahmanides, Spain, 1194-1270) explains these Pesukim as referring to the M

Things don't always come out the way you want. You envision an entire outfit and you get all excited..til you try it and you realize that its a no go. Try again. An artist is working on a painting..for weeks and months..and then all of a sudden it hits him-this is not working. He rips it up, wipes the canvas clean. Its been a whole year. A year of success and failures Highs and lows. Lots of plateaus. Its hard, to come to judgment day. In my siddur i had a list of things that i wanted to correct, i could maybe cross off two things off that that list. It was written in 2004. That's a long time ago very little change. Yes, Gd cares about quality not quantity. But there has to be a reason that so little change has happened in such a long time. When a building is crooked, no matter how much u try to explain it away..its not going to correct itself. You need to tear the building down, go back to the foundation. Refocus, Regroup and Rebuild. My first semester of PA scho

its coming there are a few minutes left. am i ready? No. do i ever feel ready? No. there are no words left to say no tears left to shed judgemnet day is coming there is no hiding from it no escaping it. we can only embrace it crown our Father as King declare our love and commitment for thats all thats left to do. thats all we can do. fix everything i did wrong? -too late promise ill be perfect? a lie all we can do is say " i love you, please give me a chance to prove it"

there is no inherent kedusha in any physical thing- even the most sacred realities like the Beit Hamikdash-any physical reality that we have in this world is only because of the kedusha that we invest in it.  something to think about 

Awesome or insane?

Relationships are complicated Simple enough right? But somehow we all ( or at least I ) want to somehow simplify them. He loves me he loves me not. She respects me she doesn't. It matters it doesn't. Things are never black and white. This world is a world of gray. We'd like to think that if you truly cared about someone then you'd never hurt her or even subconsciously try to get even. We'd like to think that we would always make time for those who we love. But alas, love is never simple. Love alone does not conquer all. It takes more than that. It takes dedication and work. Relationships are built on a foundation of both laughter and tears. Relationships come with time and time brings a plethora of situations. Some which will bring you closer some which may put distance. But distance makes the heart grow fonder, hence it is that same distance which will make you stronger, more solid. Living in the moment can be wonderful and simaltaneouesly horribly dest

I crossed something else off my bucket list. I got a tattoo. Obviously not a real one, though now that i have it, i really like it, i probably would make it permanent if i could. But i cant..so i guess ill be sticking to henna. :) I'm sure you all noticed my last post. It was not exactly upbeat and hopeful. Thank Gd I am feeling a lot better. Hanging with a friend always lifts my spirits. Oh, and I got this tattoo ;). I have always wanted to. Every summer my family would go on vacation and i would want to get one but my parents always said that it would not be appropriate, what would people say?!! Now for this first time in my life, there is no one to answer to, no community watching as i walk bye..So who cared? I went for it. I took me a while to decide what to get, but i gravitated towards this. It means strength. I was in a desperate need for strength. I used to pride myself in my strength, both physical and spiritual. But lately its all become quite flabby in place of th