AM Inspiration

Sorry. As children we are taught to say sorry. We usually didn't mean it, but our mothers would not leave us alone till we did. So, we placate them. We did as we were told and kept going on, without ever having any sincerity in our words. They did this to us to instill a lesson in us. They taught us well. We say it all the time. But what does it really mean? Does it really make anything better? We say sorry and then we do it anyways .We say sorry and we don't change. So does that sorry mean anything? When does sorry help? When is it insulting? When does simply saying sorry make everything better and when is it completely useless?

I got in! After years of working and after months of praying..it actually happened…I GOT IN!  I still find it hard to believe and it still makes my pulse quicken when I think about it.  I keep thinking…thank you Hashem! I take no credit for this accomplishment. This is all Him. I was wondering what it was that made me think this way.  I mean I have worked hard for this. I have spent many sleepless nights studying, practicing and reviewing. Countless of cups of coffee and hundreds of pretzels later..I finally achieved my goal. So why don’t I feel a sense of accomplishment? Well people say congrats I say thank you, but I don't feel like it has anything to do with me. It is a "matnas chinam."  The truth is that we do not deserve anything we get. What have we done to deserve life? A home? Beauty? Intelligence? When Moshe was davening to get into Eretz Yisrael he used the lashon of "v'etchanan." He davened so many  times until Hashem told him to stop davening ...

Its amazing. When I stopped school and started working, I came home everyday thinking to myself " man, work makes me tired, school never exhausted me this much!"  But soon I adjusted, homeostasis and all. Now that I am not working and back in school. Same feeling. School is exhausting. And this is just the beginning. I have about three more years. I had my time off, and now I'm back. Which leads me back to my original conclusion that you can get used to anything. All that is besides the point. Now that I am back, I have more stories, more material and definitely more thinking time. Here is the thought that occurred to me while I was sitting in traffic yesterday. I was physically so close to home. Really all it should have taken was about two minutes, three tops. But, there was that lovely traffic. Yes, it exists outside of NY. However, it took me probably 15 minutes to get home. ( I did a lot of Ipod shuffling in that time.) The phrase "so close, but yet so far...

I don't usually do these lists but try everything once right? If u had to advise someone which 10 Jewish books they should have in their house, excluding a siddur, chumash and machzor which she already has.. which would it be and why? (Remember, she has nothing at home but a Chumash, Siddur and Machzor) 

This kid gets it..do we?