Boot Camp
So...no stories this week, my life was normal, boring as usual, studying. this morning as i was turning on all teh lights and turning on all teh machines i was thinking " what am i gonna write abt this week?" and i keep pondering this thought untill abt 2secs ago as i was writing teh first line when u had a stroke of inspiration.anyone who has been talking to me this past week will tell you that i have been complaining non-stop. now yall know that im not really that type of person, i usually the one with the sickeningly sunny disposition. so what is my valid excuse for my complaints? i am in actual physical pain every time i move my arm, everytime i take step or sit down. no- i wasnt in a street fight, i havent been beated up,. its actually self-inflicted.
i am actually paying someone to do this to me. its called bootcamp. three times a week for an hr i come to the gym and inflict on myself unbearable pain adn suffering. Why? bcz i am sorely outa shape and need a crash course to get me back on track.This happens to us all. we get off track, we have all our lofty goals and our ambitions, but then life gets in teh way. we have school, work and if your lucky, you get 40 winks at night before it all starts again. its amazing how sometimes you need to hear something and then u hear or in my case read it. this morning i opened my trusty bridging teh gap for my fiday morning insparation. and you'll never guess what im up to- emuna. trust. trusting ourselves-our friends- the store owner- the government - Hashem.As i was reading this, i felt my eyes roll cz prsonally ive never trusted the government any less than i do right now.
this is teh hardest time for me to trust. what, we've just elected Barak Obama as president of the united states. everytime i walk around campus pple are wearing their change stickers, shirts, buttons. everywhere around me pple are walking around advertising it. anmd believe it me it hurts.(this is not a political statement) just saying is all, that trust isnt what i feel as i walk around but, as usual there is a lesson as two yrs of emails have proven. Obviously, Hashem is tryin to teach us a lesson. we didnt see it ourselves. so its there staring you in teh face(even the brits are getting into the us elections) CHANGE. I would find it hard to believe if you havent heard this yet, but there is no way that it is coincedence that it this crazy time, this is what teh president's campaign slogan is. and it also isnt a coincedence, taht it hurts so much to trust. if we work thru the pain we will be so much stronger in that exact area that hurts so much. just like i know that even though it hurts to simlpy raise my arm, after the soreness goes away, my arm wil be so much stronger and will enable me to do so much more. so basically, as a nation we are really outa shape. we have massive issues, that much is obvious.
but Hashem is giving us this opportunity on a silver platter (excuse teh cliche) and its literally staring us in teh face everytime we take a walk down teh street, drive down teh high way its there. so how much do you trust. you trust that you will wake up in the morning. you trust that your parents love you, but do you trust that He loves you, wants what is best for you. Do you trust taht HE is the ultimate enabler, in every sense of teh word, making sure that everything you need is right there for your taking. Or do we trust too much in ourselves. do we let other pple in, do we share adn stretch that trust flexor or is it all just an illusion. we live our lives but do we live our own lives or do we take down the wall that we have built around ourselves and let others in. how thick is your wall? who has the password to be allowed in. is it only you? does it include your family, cuz believe u me they are dying for that code. how bout friends, are there some whom you trust enuf. We are created to trust. we live in such a cold cruel world that if Hashem hadnt put it in our nature we would never- it rationally wouldnt work, so i believe i have digressed....
So b'kizur i think that what has happened is that our trust muscle has been weakened, and i think ( if u care what i think is your choice) that we have been put in these trying times as a sort of spiritual boot camp. yeah, its been hard and its only get tougher, but thats alright cuz we'll just have to get tougher with it. (laugh at the reference if u get it, if not keep reading without the peals of laughter) we are actively working our muscles but we will emerge stronger cuz of it. Happy excersising
i am actually paying someone to do this to me. its called bootcamp. three times a week for an hr i come to the gym and inflict on myself unbearable pain adn suffering. Why? bcz i am sorely outa shape and need a crash course to get me back on track.This happens to us all. we get off track, we have all our lofty goals and our ambitions, but then life gets in teh way. we have school, work and if your lucky, you get 40 winks at night before it all starts again. its amazing how sometimes you need to hear something and then u hear or in my case read it. this morning i opened my trusty bridging teh gap for my fiday morning insparation. and you'll never guess what im up to- emuna. trust. trusting ourselves-our friends- the store owner- the government - Hashem.As i was reading this, i felt my eyes roll cz prsonally ive never trusted the government any less than i do right now.
this is teh hardest time for me to trust. what, we've just elected Barak Obama as president of the united states. everytime i walk around campus pple are wearing their change stickers, shirts, buttons. everywhere around me pple are walking around advertising it. anmd believe it me it hurts.(this is not a political statement) just saying is all, that trust isnt what i feel as i walk around but, as usual there is a lesson as two yrs of emails have proven. Obviously, Hashem is tryin to teach us a lesson. we didnt see it ourselves. so its there staring you in teh face(even the brits are getting into the us elections) CHANGE. I would find it hard to believe if you havent heard this yet, but there is no way that it is coincedence that it this crazy time, this is what teh president's campaign slogan is. and it also isnt a coincedence, taht it hurts so much to trust. if we work thru the pain we will be so much stronger in that exact area that hurts so much. just like i know that even though it hurts to simlpy raise my arm, after the soreness goes away, my arm wil be so much stronger and will enable me to do so much more. so basically, as a nation we are really outa shape. we have massive issues, that much is obvious.
but Hashem is giving us this opportunity on a silver platter (excuse teh cliche) and its literally staring us in teh face everytime we take a walk down teh street, drive down teh high way its there. so how much do you trust. you trust that you will wake up in the morning. you trust that your parents love you, but do you trust that He loves you, wants what is best for you. Do you trust taht HE is the ultimate enabler, in every sense of teh word, making sure that everything you need is right there for your taking. Or do we trust too much in ourselves. do we let other pple in, do we share adn stretch that trust flexor or is it all just an illusion. we live our lives but do we live our own lives or do we take down the wall that we have built around ourselves and let others in. how thick is your wall? who has the password to be allowed in. is it only you? does it include your family, cuz believe u me they are dying for that code. how bout friends, are there some whom you trust enuf. We are created to trust. we live in such a cold cruel world that if Hashem hadnt put it in our nature we would never- it rationally wouldnt work, so i believe i have digressed....
So b'kizur i think that what has happened is that our trust muscle has been weakened, and i think ( if u care what i think is your choice) that we have been put in these trying times as a sort of spiritual boot camp. yeah, its been hard and its only get tougher, but thats alright cuz we'll just have to get tougher with it. (laugh at the reference if u get it, if not keep reading without the peals of laughter) we are actively working our muscles but we will emerge stronger cuz of it. Happy excersising
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