of the gym and yoga mats

So this morning i had some time to brainstorm and come up with a few things that just occured to me this morning so hopefully it'll gel together..i didnt sleep much last night and im on some serious coffee this mornin so just please bear with me if it isnt completely coherent....

so the owner of the gym is very careful to make sure to save every penny turning off the fan when no one is there , turn off the lights when the sun comes in...small things that do add up...anyways this morning as i was doing my weekly chores a few thoughts cropped up. first off, i always vacuume and I am also supposed to clean the balls and the yoga mats..vacuming i always do but the other two...no really i do but i only have to do them once a week so i always push it off..on mon ill say ill do it on fri and then it gets to friday and im like ..im tired not in the mood ill do it on mon..anyways i did the balls on friday and i was contemplating doing the mats...i start rationalizing..no one gets sweaty doing yoga anyway..who really cares...its not a big deal no one will know...uh oh..whenever the words "no one will never know" u know that maybe its not so kosher..mayeb not always but u gotta be honest and realize that Hashem always knows..so then i start thinking..is it honest, cheating, stealing, lying...that the owner thinks that i am doing this job but i dont do it..and as im trying to determine if it is any of the above i stopped..wait what am i doing? if there is even a doubt that its any of those things isnt taht enuf of a hint that its not a good idea?

when i was in high school my school secretary had a motto- when in doubt throw it out..if she saw stuff taht was out and not in place she wud trash it...andi think that this applies alot in life..when we do have second thoughts abt things..is my shirt too tight...is that somewhere i wanna be...is that a person i wanna hang out with?...then maybe its better just to do without...im not saying that its always this clear cut and if its a real issue u shud ask a shayla..but in most situations...i know that if im questioning an action i know that its prob not a good idea. mostly it happens when im shopping..ill pick up something and then i try it on and i stand in front of the mirror this way taht way trying to figuire out if its tznius..and then hopefully if im being good i usually decide that if im weighing it for so long its most prob not and im just trying to find a way to convince myself that its ok (thats if im being good) and i think alot of us can relate to this on a lot of differnt levels and in diff situations

so moving on to the next part of my morning..so as u can guess i decided to do the right thing..so usually i lay out all the mats clean em then roll em back up...but u can imagine that i have to go farther away from the mat holder with each consecutive mat...and i roll em up as i go so the first few i just walked over on my knees( i wasnt getting up) and it wasnt bad but as they got farther kneeing it across the floor wasnt being too effecient...so i said to myself i have two choices..slow and easier (giving in to the lazy side) or get my tushy up and itll be waaay faster! so i decided to actually get up and man was it faster...and i was doing it i was thinking ...this cud be a blog topic...not sure y yet..give me a few..we as people have an anmal side of us..we want to eat and sleep..and we cannot deny it...we love eating and sleeping...and that means that we like taking teh easy way out..being lazy sometimes is so tempting but then we have to remember that the day is short and there is a lot of work to do..we only get a few short yrs to get as many mitzvos as possible in..and being lazy just isnt efficient..(believeme i have me lazy days too..)but we need to be aware of our days and out time bcz they are a precious gift given to us..espeially this month when we have these few precious days to connect to Hashem on such a special level we cannot afford to be lazy (specially in these days of economic crises)...

moving on...so as im cleaning and stuff i always turn on the light in the room cuz i wanna see when im vacuumimg u know?anwyas..im wiping mats and the sun starts shining in..and im personally a big fan of natural light so i got up to turn off the lights..(saving money...this is where i started) and then the real light started streaming in. before wehn the lights where on..it was masking the the true beauty of the sunlight and im sure at this point u get where im giong...we have things that glitter spatrkle look real..look like they shud be important to us..money..looks..cell phones..status..money..shoes..money...but thats the yetzer hara tryin to keep us busy...hes trying to mask the real light...this month..we have such a special connection with Hashem..yet its this month that we are so busy doing things that we miss out...school is starting..all the guests that are coming..shopping for clothes...all these things take up our time..its a busy month..and for good reason the yetzer hara tries to get us so busy running aound that we dont have time to do teshuva...we dont have the chance to do what we are ment to be doing..he masks the real light of Hashem's presence..HIs special connection with us during this month with all these things that yes we hve to do..but we have to remember that they are secondary...we need to turn off the light for a bit..once a day..twice a week.. especially during Elul and let the real light shine in..then we'll see how bright the world really is....

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