another fast day

Another fast day..come and almost gone

Fast days are always hard because I am never sure what I am supposed to be doing.

I am supposed to be using the fasting as a way to spiritually elevate yourself. I am supposed to be sad.

But mostly i feel lost. Today..I have an awful headache. But do i feel spiritual? Do I feel closer to G-d? No.

Mostly feel like an epic fail.

I can listen to shiurim. I can choose not to listen to music... But still the day is lost on me.

Another 11 minutes..

I am supposed to grow through the day not go through the day..

I wish i could

Comments

  1. DevorahJune 30, 2013 at 8:17 PM

    You are a human being...just like the rest of us...

    I like that line-grow through the day and not go through the day-that's a good one!

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